R rated problem

When I was young, practically speaking at age 7-12. I was "taught" Malaysia is a good country. People here are kind while we are having different culture and different religion. Taught since young, we are sharing all the cultures etc..... Talking about our harmony between three big races... bla bla bla... When the age doubled, 24 now... everything becomes sucks... The truth is waiting to reveal...

Everywhere we can find cracks between these big three.... Just like Malaysia road condition... you can never find a road which is nice and flat... I think this is the most suitable way to describe the big three.... Everytime problem comes.... TAMPAL la.... then again... problem comes again and again... never solve....

I discovered.... in fact is not the problem of being different races... is something which is more important --> R................... once we solved this problems then everything solved. I really wondered why people always take this R thing so serious.... Are you taking it so serious ?? It is just part of our life... Life need to move on... I myself not even want to rely much on such a thing... What's the meaning of being so dependent and finally you never get ??? then you started to blame and started to say that: Oh....is a test of my patience.... Niamah Puki la... no dependence = no disappointment... I have my mouth, my hand, my leg, and my brain... I have to work out the solution myself... Not sitting there waiting to harvest....

Complicate.....

At this moment I really feel that when you have something wanna voice out but you cannot voice out in your facebook...in friendster...in MSN... here is another good place for me kick out someone ass....

Recently something too complicated comes across my life... I can say it is totally ruin my life, my family... almost everything... I need to suffer this every weekend... I hate this very very much... I rather being escape to UKM... Although I have lot of works to do in UKM... but I feel through working I can basically forget those burden which are not supposingly affects my life.... Thanks to my parents who are so strong to stand after being a long time such disastrous matter... really seen how great being parents. Wonder whether can I become someone like them so tough....Anyway... Don't want to mention about it... Once the right time come... then it is the time to reveal it...

all down

Today is totally a fuck....what happened to all the network in Malaysia.... CIMB network is down...DIGI network is down... apalah.....

Special ability (Immortal & Regenerable)

I was discussing this topic with couple of friends... They suggest that human should not be immortal...but I'm thinking if we are given a chance...why don't we choose to be immortal or regenerable...By having such ability, I can do what ever I like... I don't need to give any damn to anyone... what I may need is just maybe 100 years of commitment and responsibility to my parents, my spouse, and my child... I don't care about my my grandson cos that's no longer my responsibility... Therefore, I can finally throw away all the burdens and start travelling around experience what people has no even a single opportunity....I want to travel around the world... Nobody knows who am I and I'm will not get old...My body will remains and stays at age of 24...People may ask....where you get all the money...I can work....any works....I'm willing to try since I have infinity of time....Try to rob a bank as well... Since I won't dead and regenerable....so what ??? shoot me with M16 I also wont't die... Hahaha... and I'm happy cos I'll be awarded into a tiny cell in Fox River if I robbed in America... I can have so many that people cannot have.... I can gain damn fucking more experiences and knowledges that people don't have...Study la phD, bla bla bla....get a Professor title or what la in any field...even is multifield...because I have so many times.... I willing to travel to the space since I'll will not die.... Just send me there... Or send me to the earth core.... probably I can figure out what actually inside the core....So many things I can be done and I want to do it...

Let's pray for me !!! I'll be Immortal !!!

boring schedule...

I really can't stand on such rubbish kind way of life...everyday is just like waiting..but dunno what i waiting for...perhaps waiting for the master offer letter to come...It's already been one week that i got to know i had successfully got a placement...Is it need such a long time to prepare a letter and send it to me ??? what ever la...what i can do now is just waiting...

how rubbish am i ??

10.00 am : wake up
10.05 am : struggling to wake up
10.10 am : fall sleep again...
10.30 am : shit...what time liao i still on bed...finally decided to crawl out from bed to clean up..
10.45 am : sit in front computer checking INBOX with no email...
11.00 am : breakfast time
11.30 am : again...sit in front computer surfing net..so bore...
12.06 am : father come back and must makan lunch..so i makan lo....
12.30 am : play NFS underground...
1.00 pm : feel bore and go to bed again...read few pages of shin chan and sleep...
4.00 pm : wasted so many time...wake up and go see computer..i really dunno what can i do..
6.00 pm : also nothing to do...maybe sleeping or looking at bored computer....
7.00 pm : makan dinner...
7.30 pm : again...look at computer dunno for what...
8.00 pm : go in air cond room use laptop..listen songs..and again look at my laptop...
9.30 pm : time finally come...waiting friends fetch me go yum cha...
10.00 pm : yumcha lo...
12.00 pm : balik rumah and online again...
2.00 am : time to sleep.......

do u have such a boring life as me...suggest me to do something please... I'm almost dying...

money money money....

Everyone has a dream....what's your ??? I not sure everyone has a same dream...but i know everyone tend to be rich... as we know...we cannot live without money....as I always say money is "magnum"........ I myself like money too much....It can make my life simply better...

What will I do if I'm rich suddenly ???

1. I can pay all damn ptptn loan....
2. I can own a house which cost half a million (that's enough for me)
3. I can own a nice car such as Audi, BMW M6, Nissan 350z, Hummer, Lambo if I can.....
4. Get married.......
5. Give parents a better life....
6. Chill out with friends a high classy places.....
7. Go travel as I like...
8. Terminate my studies......
9. ............... There are too much...........

I'm lost again in this world.......................sigh......

Bodoh !!!!

This is already the end of final year...final semester...everything supposed to be done...but still....there is still left my viva....kinda afraid of my viva, cos afraid of correction...afraid have to do extra experiments....i already tired of undergrad life....please let me go......

Talking about design project...i wondered why some group can just ignored it and submit especially chem students.....WTF...... why always bio ppl kena one....unfair.... unfair....now we have to do correction even during the holidays....so...after the correction...they probably will announced who is the winner of FYDP....so after tat the winner have to spend another 2 weeks in UKM to make the project perfect....betul betul bazir our time and money....KAN !!!

About jab night....till when they will learned to respect others ??? sampai bila baru nak respect ??? I'm really feel that they shouldn't did it like this.... what if people doing back the same thing to you ???

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON'T SERVE BEEF WHEN YOU GUESS LIST HAD INDIAN (and also not all chinese can take beef)....what if i serve something non-halal to you ??? what do you think ???

People not speaking out doesn't mean they don't mind... they just don't want to be troublesome.... and they forgive your foolishness... People respect you all the time...but you never....never !!!!!!!!! LEARN La MANKO !!!!!!!!